Jumping off Waterfalls

Every Midnight after I make my daily confession
In my heart a thought jumps up
A deadly question
I tell people I'm fine
As a shudder goes up my spine
And wonder when I'll be satisfied
With the answers people have tried
To give me
And still I utter it when all else is at peace
And it builts in force
Then once more seeks release

What is life? Will I always be this being?
And when will end my possibility of existance?
Talked about in the past tense
Will I ever be the same?
Will I have the ability to find, lose
And gain?
They tell me that life is all about
Not knowing which way the path will turn
The length of the road and how long
It will take to get to where I'm going.
The idea is to walk
And look toward the end but never find it.
The road goes on forever as
The course of time unwinds it.

We mark at each turn, a checkpoint
Telling where we've been and seen.
Each mile marker just another sequence of
The eternal dream.

Because...

Life is reaching, freezing, burning
Talking, giving, loving, learning.
Forgetting things and who we are
Walking in the crowd and
Enjoying the night
Watching dreams slip out of sight
Pressing on despite all doubt
And watching both our fantasies
And nightmares drag us on
Until they come about.

Life is trusting, crying, fuming
Decaying leaves and velvet blooming
Staring through a frosted window
Dancing when you see a rainbow
Waking when you'd rather sleep and
Smiling when you'd rather weep.
Remembering all the good times you had
Finding out that something wasn't that bad
Craning your neck to look up at the sky
And finally
Jumping off a waterfall
You hold your breath
And...

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