Updates
December 27th, 2004
Thank goodness! My site's finally back up ^_^ the backups of the old version got lost when drive D blew up and so I figured, well, I guess it's time for a remodeling o.0 So here's version 2! Alot of my stuff got deleted with drive D as well, like character profiles, photoshoppings, older art, art that I didn't post anywhere, etc. Sad, really. *sniffles* but I guess it gave me a good reason to pull out my limited htmling skills again. I kinda like this new layout. Although the actual LAYOUT part of the layout isn't that different, the background picture's kinda cool. I did like the other one though. But this one seems to fit my mood more lately. Anyway, enough rambling. Go see, if you want! hopefully I'll have more things to add later.

Poetry
Raemanzu's Poetry

Okay. Here's some poetry for your consideration. Beware. I write all kinds of stuff and I'm not sure how good mine is. But anyway. Here you go!

Am I the only one who hears these voices?
Crying Out

Come on
Let me go
Let me go
Your calm is strangling me
Don't make me break free

Let me cry
Stop sayin' there's no reason why
I feel so pressured
Judged and measured
Taller than I am
Let me cry
Let me let it go
Stop holding me back
Holding it in
Until it builds up
Until it all explodes

Who are you to tell me
I have no right to feel this way
Who are you to chain me up
GO AWAY

I sound like someone suffering
One with nothing left to lose
With so few of grievances
You and I sound like such fools

YOU FOOL
I am my own controller
Look at that girl
Look how you sold her to herself
Her own goodness
Or is it evil
NO MORE CONFUSION
I beg of you
To let me speak

I feel neglected
I confess
My weakness cries that I have too much
To deal with
Too many complaints to adress
But I've learned this much
That people aren't like teddy bears
Always ready to give comfort
Each man has a load he bears
And cannot always happily relieve my stress
How dare I cry when many others
Live or die in constant pain

But then again...

Yes
You stupid girl
Listen closely
You have no right to feel like this
No right to feel at all
Or at least
You should be happy
To obey their beck and call
You poor pathetic foolish child
You think that things will be easy
You think you have it bad
My dear
You should be glad
To have a chance to prepare
For that deadly, crushing world out there

You're right...

NO
Wait
Something's going on
Something's going wrong
And I can feel my soul REJECTING what you say
Who are you anyway
I own my life
And everyone has difference challenges to face
Let me out of this torn-up twisted place
I WANT IT BACK
I can't believe I let you lie
Get out and don't bother to say goodbye

Have it your way
Silly girl
But I'll come back someday
Someday when you're angry and alone
I'll claim what is my own

Go away
Go on
Let me go
Let me cry
I don't want to believe your lie
Why is it I can shed no tear
Is it because the doubt's still here
I feel so stretched
Completely crushed
Let me cry
I just want to cry
Cry it all free

I must

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